blaming yourself for doing nothing.

hello everyone! hows all? today i must say is such a tiring/boring day. my mother.. as usual, will bug the bloody shits outta me to go do groceries with my sister for tomorrow. ( woohoo!) so yes and that was early, around 12 plus? then i left my place, took the bus there since it was raining. ( burr.. cold man.) reached there, had lunch (pastamania), after that we went to the supermarket, and we started getting whatever we needed. altogether it cost about.. ninety bucks. still on tight budget i must say. after that we took a cab back. reached home and then left the house again because we forgot to buy something. after that went back home, packed everything. finally we're done for tomorrow. ( yay!) and as for now, im bored. i'm thinking of getting a job. i feel that i'm gonna get a job.i need a job, i will get that job ( k, this didnt sound right) but really, i want a job. i need cash man. can't i just find a blank cheque on the floor! i need to pray. dear god, i need a job! you dont understand, i just need it!. help me god. amen